ambitions!!!

dreams...desires...demands....what is more important?....still didn't get ne answer to ma question?..i kept on struggling wid ma questions and i kept on wonderng that to whom shall i ask ma questions...who is da perfect person to answer ma questions....then on one day, i got all ma answers...i am da person who can answers all ma questions...
smtimes i think dat why being successful becomes so important for us dat we smtyms start neglecting our own lives...why ? for me being successful has changd its meaning...when we are in school , our wrld is btwn the boundaries of the school, we think what our parents make us think..."beta IIT karo, beta medical karo, beta 95% se kam nahi ana chiye,beta class me frst kyu nahi aaye" end number of suggn and end number of questions. smtymes it confuses us to an extent that we end up doing nthng. walking through the same "bailey road"made me feel so different, so mature today. i got a feeling dat the place knows me..i knows wot i want in ma lyf. life...so unkind, so cruel, huh...still so beautiful so exciting. i am always confused between "wots more important?" i always keep on thinking dat wot exactly do i want from my life. living such a luxurious life why i am still discontent..why??..answer to it..even i do not know....i used to get happiness by making othrs happy..but now um hardly happy. what does ambition mean to me? what does happiness mean to me? um still searching for the answers. my life is going so fyn but it only appears fine.. smthng is eating it up..there is smthng which is makin me sad...i still dnt know what.. why do i feel like as if smthng is slipping away from ma grip and um letting it go although i need it very badly...why?and wot?...sumtyms i think, dat did i do sm wrng to ma lyf? ..did i take any wrng decisions?...at da same tym i think not of regretng to ma mistakes.....huh..um confused...not gtng answers to ma question....just living in hope dat sm day i ll get sm answers... nvr tot a simple wrd "ambition" can vacillate me to such an extent...:) :)

change!!!

She wants to chng…she wants to chng everything in her lyf……everything means everything…each single day and each single preson reminds her dat how imperfect she is….she is da most imperfect gal in this wrld and ppl have proved it….she has lost all her will to live her lyf her own way….ppl have proved dat she is good for nothng…..each single person has proved dat she is good for nothng….she is falling…she is suffocating…and da best thng is she can’t share her suffocation to neone…..smtymes lyf appears to b very harsh…sumtymes huh!!!!....she is lost smwhr now….even she doesnot know how to cum back….she is going mad….going crazy….but now she will try to chnge….yes “chnge” the wrd she hated…she ll try to chnge for othrs…she ll behave how others want her to behave…she ll…she ll……she ll pretend to b happy..…chnge is very important for everyone…..wot mattes is wthr dat chng is good or bad….and obv she ll chng for good….she ll chng for making others happy……atleast othrs ll b happy coz of her existence…coz she is not making herself proud by existing in this wrld….she is lost and she had surrendered to chng……she ll chng herself